Day 4 of Protests (cont): The questions we've been asking for years; Contingency plan; Never before...

11:00pm

Just watched the press conference with Robert Gibbs. 

SUMMARY: It is perfectly clear that the US government has not been in touch with the Egyptian government; They, like everyone else, have no idea where Mubarak has fled, and it looks bad on their part because the FACT that they haven’t been in touch with Mubarak yet makes it all too obvious and all too quickly that there was never any relationship with Mubarak to begin with – they’ve been bribing him the entire time. He was never an ally, he was a dictator that they were paying off. THE US IS FINALLY ON THE COALS FOR LYING TO THE MIDDLE EAST AND TO THE AMERICAN PEOPLE FOR YEARS.

OMG GIBBS IF YOU CAN’T SAY ANYTHING NEW JUST SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!! Please just say “We don’t have any answers yet but we’re working on it” and get off the stage, you’re boring us. 

But the journalists were asking questions my family and I have been asking for years!! Music to my ears...

I am really freaking out about Amr. Every other member of our family has been accounted for and is safe except for Amr OH GOD I HOPE HE’S OK – AND IF HE IS WHY HASN’T HE CALLED ANYONE YET??? Please God let us hear from him soon. Please watch over him and let him be ok. 

Tanya called to tell me the new contingency plan: 1)Everyone stay in one place until the country is stable; 2) Hopefully the students will be brought back on Sunday, and when they do everyone will stay together as a group, and I will rejoin them as soon as it makes sense to. For now I stay with my family, I am in a very good place. Al hamdu liAllah. At this point we can’t plan beyond that. We are waiting to see what happens. If things turn for worse and the Mubarak regime is unseated, they will most likely move us to Paris, but they really want us to stay as long as it’s safe and they will do everything they can for us to remain in Cairo…

I’ve never had a nervous breakdown before. I have never felt utter fear before. Nor true anxiety. Nor overwhelming happiness that goes far beyond myself or even the people in my life and extends to meanings I can’t even comprehend yet. I will be learning to understand the effects of today and my experience living through it for the rest of my life.